"Where ever you go, what ever you do, I will be right here waiting for you!"

I just wanted to come here and kinda open up about my feelings but I don't know how to start. I'm awful to put my feelings into words when it is about love.

 My feelings confuse me; I'm happier than I even thought I could be but then I'm also so sad because my lover is so far away. Still he knows how to make me happy no matter what is wrong. He is so respectuful and treats me like a princess. I've never seen a guy doing that to me before. It makes me feel so special.

I know I'm not the easiest possible girlfriend; I can get mad easily and being patient is definitely not the strongest part of me. My lover is absolutely opposite; I've never seen a guy who can be so patient with me and who still won't get mad no matter how annoying I can be. I say that for real I don't know what've I done to deserve a man like that. But believe me, was he far away or not, I'm not going to let him go. He is one of the kind. <3

Right now I'm just waiting that he gets to know will he be able to come to Finland next summer. I know it's not easy for him cause it asks so much money. But I tell you that if you've never been in a distance relationship you don't know how important Skyping can be. That's what keeps me going on day after day, cause then I know that when the weekend comes, we're able to talk again. I've had some breaking points already because I miss him so much but usually after a couple minutes I just force myself to keep going on because I know how much he misses me too and I know this waiting will pay itself back sooner or later. And of course now someone will ask me that if i've never seen him in a real life, how am I able to miss him. But it doesn't depend on that. You don't necessarily need to be in a same place physically before you can say you miss someone. For me, the way he acts and treats me is enough.

I don't know if my writing makes any sence, especially for those who don't have any idea what it is to being in a distance relationship, but I just had to write my feelings to somewhere. Otherwise my heart would've get too full of my feelings.And yes, I met this guy on facebook, but I can tell, that sometimes social media can give you perfect surprises.

Mario Yo Te Amo! <3

Ask, ask, ask!

Hardly any comments in my blog! Now I want to wake you up! So ask me anything! Ask ask ask! =) I'll make an answer post later =)
xoxo Julia

"It's all about 'bout me!"

Those of you who know me better, probably also know that music has always had a big place in my heart. It's not only that I love to listen to music, I also have some dreams about my future with music. As you know, I love to dance, but I also love to sing. So far I've only sang when I'm alone and I know no one (not including some important people) can here me, but that's just because I'm shy because of what some people have said to me.

Anyway Axl Smith visited our school today, and for those of you who don't know who he is, Axl is a well known TV person and a singer in Finland. He told us how he started with music and also said that we need to do what makes us happy, no matter what others might think. This made me think about my possible career with music and singing again. People keep saying to me, that unless you're very famous, you won't earn much money. But as I've grown older, I've realised that it's not all about money. I'd prefer a job what I really love to do, even though I wouldn't earn a lot money, over a job where I'd earn good money, but what I wouldn't like to do at all.


I've done quite a lot of performances already, partly because of my dance, and even though I'm always so nervous right before the show, still while it's going on, I've noticed how natural I can be at the stage. I love to perform and especially when it happens with music and when I was in junior high, a friend of mine once told me that another person had said that my voice is so good when I sing, but the problem is that I don't sing in front of people. And no, I'm not selfish, it's just what I heard.



This is my dream and I've decided (thanks to Axl) that I want to give it a chance and try, so now I'm asking you to respect my decision and not comment anything rude. Anyway, if you have some good tips for example how should I start, go ahead and tell me! =)

xoxo Julia

#Callme

This time I decided to come to talk to you about something what I feel important to talk about: bullying! In Finland's social media is going on a project which translated name is #callme. The idea of this is that you write to a paper first a bad name what people've used about you, and after that draw a line or a cross over it and then under it write a word that you prefer to be used about you.

The reason why I wanted to talk about this is that I was bullied too from 5th grade to the end of 8th grade. The beginning of the 8th grade was the worst time and I think I'll never forget it. I have got over it but I won't forget it. Almost every night I cried myself to sleep. The bullying was always mental, never physical but still it left me scars which remind me about themselves every now and then. The worst what I heard over and over again was that they're only words. I tell you that if I had to chose I'd prefer just a punch into my face than all that mental bullying what I had to stand. Because physical wounds will heal up at some point but mental wounds will always be there.

I'm still here and I'm stronger than I used to be, but it could've ended absolutely other way; It might be that I would not be here any longer. Luckily it isn't like that and these days I help my friends who still get bullied at school because I know how they feel. Bulliers: Do you know that? Do you know how it is when you feel useless and so lonely and start to believe what the bulliers are saying to you? I tell you that it's not fun! So everybody: Let's think twice what we're going to say to others! The bullying needs to be stopped!

#Callme